Monday Night English Disciple Class > 제자학교

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“How was everyone’s week?”  A simple question to start the class yet that one question silenced the whole room.  No one volunteered to answer the question, especially not me.  The only thought that was running through my head was, “Please don’t call on me, please don’t call on me.  Whew, I lived.”  I am introverted and wanted to avoid speaking out as much as possible in class.  I also wanted class to end as fast as possible.  Although I signed up for class, I was already waiting for it to end. 

When an English disciple class was offered, I finally signed up since I am much more comfortable in English than Korean.  I was not confident I could not fully understand or participate well in a Korean disciple class so I never signed up.  When the first disciple class began, my initial thought was will I be able to finish this class and all the assignments necessary to pass.  I didn’t know many of the people in my disciple class, just saw them at church sometimes since I was in the Korean ministry.  As the weeks went by, I got to know them more and got more comfortable in class.  I usually get anxious in new environments but everyone was very welcoming.  As we were able to worship and pray for one another, the bond of Christ was forming.  We were all gathered together to learn more about Jesus and the call to become his disciples.  Everyone with different backgrounds, different upbringings, different struggles, different path of faith, but all united in the love for Jesus Christ.  As weeks went by class was already over and it felt like it went by quickly.

The daily training of scripture reading and prayer was a struggle in the beginning and somedays it still is.  When the flesh is weak and tired, it is so easy to say, “I’ll do it tomorrow.”  I was victim to that as well but was able to come back and focus on God.  Other times I would have fallen off the wagon but through this class, I was able to come back to the word of God and prayer.  Some days were a real spiritual struggle.  The only way through was with prayer and the prayer of others.  Everyday there are so many temptations and setbacks that can make you stumble and only way to protect yourself is with the word and prayer.  Also looking at other classmates and their strong and amazing faith in God, helped me to strengthen mine as well. 

Disciple class may have started out as a burden but it really showed how weak I really am and how much I need God in my life.  Through his grace, I was able to complete this class and learn more about myself and how hard it is to be a disciple of Jesus Christ.